All my life... seeking for an answer
Friday, September 15, 2006
1:53 AM
So tired...
I have decided... Until he know what he wants..these period, we shall not contact each other. Hopefully that soon, both of us know if we really need each other. When I told him about it, he's not able to accept it however I'm quite firm with this decision. I think that I really should cool myself down and think about our relationship.. asking myself whether I can still believe him in future.. asking myself am I wrong all the while.. asking myself where do he or I stand in each other's heart.
I now begin to understand that I have to believe in myself. Have been telling some of my frens about us.. and I get different advise..different opinions. I do not know who to listen to and do not know what is right or wrong. Now I know.. whatever I do.. we must believe in myself and follow my heart. Even though it may be wrong or other ppl might disapprove of what I do.. at least I follow what my heart really wants.. and at least I will feel more comfortable of what I have decide.. I'm not saying that those advice other ppl gave me are rubbish or whatever, they are still useful to me, but when it comes to the big decision making.. I still have to decide myself and what my heart really want.
I feel so tired.. so tired of waiting for his answer.. so tired of listening to what he said which doesn't seems real to me.. so tired of pretending to be happy infront my family.. tired of thinking to myself what should I do..what should I do.. tired of crying.. tired of everything! I need to be alone...
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1 Comments:
dont be too sad.. probably its right to let yourself cool down for some time and really think what should be the next step. Whatever u do, as long as u happy, I will support u. Most impt is dont regret any decisions that you make in life. =D
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